Not every pretty girl in shorts is a slut. Not every fat girl isn't trying to lose weight. Not every girl who listens to screamo wants to kill herself. Not every girl who self harms does it for attention. Not every girl with glasses is a complete nerd. Not every girl who is unattractive is single. Not every girl is what you think of her. Look deeper before you judge.
I started this month in the wrong foot. Lost my girl. Then getting myself more in trouble. But I’m ending this month by seeing my ex & seeing all my Friends. I’m ending this month to have fun & not worry about anything (:
I’ve realize that every year of this month, I’m always getting in trouble or something ends up turning out to be bad. I wonder why..
That time when me, you, & betty, we were laying down looking up at the sky while we were holding hands. Me, you, & Betty laughing. Listing you talk & knowing I had the best. Looking at the sky with you at night… One thing that I always wanted to do with someone special. That time when we were hugging for like a good whole 10-15 min. That moment felt like the right time for our first kiss. I well never forget that night. Then the next day, I came over to visit savanna before she moved. When you were there laying down in bed & I laid there beside you, holding your hands! Hugging you & holding you in bed, special moment. Then the first day I ask you out, remember that day?! 1.15.11. That night, before I left… It was me & you outside holding hands! Looking into each others eyes. Talking about how un-expectively I ask you out. The next night, you were telling me the best part about the night I ask you out. Remember?! You said “I love the moment me & you were outside holding hands!” We had it so good Like we never fought, we never had nothing. Then, few weeks went by. Communition in our relationship started falling apart. Then we stop seeing each other. Our conversion over the phone was different. Things change after you stop talking to me for one week. The day you ignored me when I clearly had to talk to you & ask you why you were ignoring me. And when I told you that I cried cause you ignored me … After I told you that you seem like you didn’t really care…. Why?! Why?! Then out of the blue, something happen a few days or weeks after that. We broke up…. You broke up with me… It was a understanding reason but not good enough to break us apart. You missing me & you being jealous, shows me & let me know that you still wanna be with me… Sometimes I really don’t know. I never gave up on our relationship. When I was falling apart I never gave up! I love you! That’s why! Idk… But when you told me you really miss me & you were waiting for me to ask you out again…. Makes me wonder… All the WHAT IF’s ….. Makes you wonder huh?! Me too… Me too…
Sometimes I don’t understand why we argue over nothing. All these sleepless nights made me wonder if you even care at all. You say one thing but you do another, I always end up apologizing first even if it’s completely your fault. Whenever we argue, I feel choked up on words, I feel as if I’m not good enough, I feel the need to comfort you. I’m just used to taking the blame for the both of us. But where can I go when I need some reassurance?